http://www.truthdig.com/report/page3/20080729_acts_of_war/

Dear readers(if there are any) the link above is a report by Scott Ritter, a former U.N. weapons inspector and Marine intelligence officer who has written extensively about Iran.

Please read and be informed about the going ons of the world and the butterfly effect that will ripple through our daily lives and our economic outlook in the near future,even as we prepare for the festivities ahead take heed from the surroundings around us whispering of things to come.Open your eyes and have a broader view of the world rather than preoccupy our minds with our own needs and wants and bragging about the 'new' things in our lives,after all in the end 'things' are just that 'things' nothing more than that.What we are left with is our dignity and self worth in life and knowledge we garner throughout our lives no matter how short it is.

So read and knowledge is key and power to elevate you a higher level(modesty and humility shows true character so use the knowledge wisely)....

Lights

My wife and i had trip down to Geylang yesterday night coz the young daughter wants to hunt down some cloth to make her baju kurung,as we drove there i can't help thinking to myself when we saw the lights illuminating the night at Geylang Serai that what are we as a society???.Are we just a bunch of people easily pacified by this yearly lights that represents the holy month of Ramadan or are we more than that as a society???.It saddens me to think that we are that easy, this is evident when conversations of admiration and accolades were centered on the lights on the streets.

Are we just that?? Lights??? Are our rights as the natives of this land that we call 'home' addressed at the highest level??? What happen to our national language Malay??? is it replaced by Mandarin or some other dialect??? Where are the promises made before we separated from Malaysia to our Malay grassroots leaders???..

Now it seems that we are the problem child in our own country,with us topping the table of having the highest drug addicts,having topped also the highest divorce rates,having also the highest sexual problems in our youths,and lets not forget we topping the table with having the most dysfunctional families.All this is due to our small population compared to the other races and whatever wrongs that we do will have a glaring effect on the 'tables',so what it boils down to is us.

The question here again is what are we???,are we going to be mild-mannered,self-loathing,self-pacified with the scraps thrown to us from the master or are we going to refuse and resist and have this relentless pursue for greatness and are we willing to sacrifice everything and anything to the course,in the wake of this is just collateral damage.I guess I'm alone in this as i have put forward this idea of revolution to some of 'us' and all i get is blank stares and glazed stares,in their minds I'm a nutcase,ungrateful and a terrorist.I'm not all the above but someone who is not delusional by the propaganda campaigns put forth.

So what are we??? Who are we??? are we willing....

Succumb

Nothing is never clear with thoughts
The will,the passion,the faith is fought
Cosmetic preferential beings of industrial fate
Walls of pain,doubt,fear,loneliness,never i prevail
Dear i have never known we will be unveiled
Constant feelings of bearing within i consume
Succumbed i comprehend my life of waste and dwellings
Unsuspecting skeptics breaking us, beats us down
Believing nothing, i have nothing to show, they will frown
Passion of unwavering belief,in itself i will fade away and drown

A video that made my tears trickled down

Rumblings

There is so much of nothing to be said
There is so much of anything to be said
Many of my hearts yearning
Emptiness dwells within and selective suicide compels
Affordability is questioned,is prodded,is elective,is awaken
Hold to the truth of my principles
Rumblings of my mind's inner me
Sins of mistakes, remorse burns,it grows,consumes till....
Tears welled up,through the eyes of the unseen left behind they felt
Years of pain,death an escape,till death, alone he bears his loneliness
Hearts blackened by consumption,by pride,by self-importance
Steps never taken and we will never again be graciously saved.....
Warmth of love to be embraced, having nothing brings calmness....

Unwanted Children

During every national day is never a very patriotic day for me coz for one i have never believed of an authoritarian state like ours.Given the chance i leave this state in a heart beat,probably go to a lest 'safe' place but i would have my rights and freedom close to me without any fear or scare tactics being shoved into u by the ruling party.
My experiences in my previous job in the Army(i was a regular) has taught me many unpleasant things,i guess its true that the colour of your skin does take u far.For instance my first posting as a regular was to a Artillary camp,a malay boy going to a artillary camp mmmm i must have impressed people in the top brass to give such a posting but no a rude awakening awaits me.My Battary Sargeant Major first words upon seing his new specialist was 'are u supposed to be here'then in one breath 'here no malay cookhouse'.I'm like damn what the hell so malays are only good for eating cook house food!!!!!!!.So with that incident comes waves of others, that tested me and my beliefs in the system but i snap within and all i have now is resentment in the system and the governance of this country coz this country don't trust me enough.This entry is to reaffirm what sph writer nurdianah wrote in the papers recently 'why i feel the least favourite child'.I was at awed in what she wrote coz it is very true that these things do happen and i can testify to that.