Melayus

This topic will rattle a few feathers but i don't know whether there is anyone who actually would read my blog but here it goes. All this while deep within me i felt that i am not who i am what i mean is that i'm not a melayu ( I'm not gay either) i can never seem to relate or identify myself with my roots if i have any so hence i look to the west and i have found that i could immediately identify with them,this lead to heated arguments with my parents but who fucking care about what they think!! my opinion is mine and mine alone, they have no weight or say in how i run my life event it leads to self destruction (who wants to live forever), i always believe that once you embrace death you will be free of the restrictions and doubtability of your potential, come what may...
the melayus that i come to contact and interact on a daily basis always will leave a bad aftertaste in mind and well being and with this i guess they will take home with them an impression that i am a snobbish guy who forgot the colour of his skin but fuck that!!! i am who am, the great KURT COBAIN once said come as you are, with this i come as i am no airs about me and i am frank and straight to the point and also blunt and also not tactful..... anyways life is not a popularity contest!!!!!